I find it so easy to befriend them
It’s half due to attraction and half due to my open approach
Why do I have such an open approach?
When I foresee my own attraction, I subconsciously create a reason to approach, in my friendly manner
Then I proceed to talk, in my friendly manner
However, there is no difference between how I am with one I consider as a potential spouse and with one whom I wish to remain friends
I confuse myself and surely he must be confused
Once I have embarked on my befriending journey, I begin to focus my thoughts on the one I am considering
There is only one at a time, though
Each one lasts until I realise there is no hope
This varies in length
I want them all to remain as friends, though!
We shall go no further than friends until we are both sure it is right
The latter is yet to occur!
Yet I have chosen to abandon ship and sometimes they are still onboard
What is one to do then?
I do not wish to offend!
I simply wish to befriend!
This deck has been dealt so many times, though, and I am left feeling as the temptress.
Am I she?
I really wish not to be!
I simply want to be friendly but get caught up in my own friendliness and end up considering more
All track of reasoning behind my communication is lost
Am I simply being friendly or am I seeking to win a spouse?
Is that even temptation?
Only God can help me answer this and lead me down the correct path!